nineteen years of this and whats the use?
these walls are closing in on me inflicting abuse
of noisy neighbors and nosy mothers and
distant lovers and
people that simply just don't give a damn
why do I even bother than
Ive stopped trying to make sense of it
Cuz I flipped it around and
turned it upside down and
looked inside out but
either angle i analyzed it ~ it came out to be the same
all of your "feelings" was just running game
So if it made me happy at the moment should I feel ashamed?
Wait u tellin me I should feel ashamed of happiness?
Okay lets leave it at ignorance is bliss
and when you love sometimes you miss and
some other cliche lines that rhymes with kiss
and diss, but like Ray J I still want my one wish
3..
seconds and my second chance has gown to waste
my soul is flying out to space
my eyes just saw all they've seen before
life flashin before my tongue tasting blood raw
swallowing hard like that lump in the back of ya throat
when she blew me hard with some words she spoke
it started with a startling knock on the wall
Then slowly my eyes began to bawl...
the blank expression on my face soon followed
the gap between my ears completely hollow
2..
seconds and two sides of a penny couldn't help me choose
heads or tails if in the end I still loose
(smh..) but my bomb is still ticking and her mouth is still running
Niagra, Mississippi, Nile, couldn't
compare to hers..
1..
second left and a millisecond of breath
inhale exhale into the next..
life, bride, mother, wife all denied your life
(lmao) saying your last minute prayers aint getting you nowhere
cuz your witness is in heaven
and he witnessed all your sin
but then again..
if it means anything why not give it a try
Because all you have left really is to say good bye!!!
