Has anyone else noticed that I’m not over him? Am i the only one who feels my heart drop to my stomach whenever I see him? Is it only my eyes that know his presenece as soon as he hits the scence? Is it only my heart that quivers at the memories so scerene. Does anyone else hear the voices in my head? Does anyone else taste my tears cuz our relationship is dead? Can anyone tell my stalker status checking him up on facebook. Remembering when I was number one on his top, now I cant get a second look. He put me on to Plattsburgh, gave me a reason to come here. And after six months, he gave me a reason to breathe fear. So why do I miss him? Why does it hurt so badly? Its like a deep wound never ending never healings constantly dripping the blood of sorrow. Each night dreaming of him near, fearing I’ll see him tomorrow. And when I do all I can do is put my head down. Because after what he did to me I wouldnt give him the satisfaction of seeing me frown. And still.. I miss him terribly. And the numerous numbers arent helping.. (I dont have the converstaions that we use to share)The numerous sex sessions (although great) still, arent helping.. (yours became the perfect fit, size, shape, length, width, and you put it down like no one else has before) and while my heart is yelling and screaming aloud why cant he be there.. my head is using deductive reasoning attempting to mask my true feelings. "Quiet" it says, "it is too late, he was cheating on you the WHOLE TIME, it wasnt something great". and my heart is dying because he isnt near. starting planning my funeral please. Cuz whenever I see his face, I feel weak in my knees. Has anyone else noticed? Masking all I will, my transparent face still holds looks to kill. And everytime I see him i think of our memories. He was my baby, my love my everything. But thats my fault. So this lesson learned... dont ever give your heart to anyone.
