In the death that he give...

I wonder sometimes about these dreams that I fight
thinking what happend to my life
when did life take control over what I behold
feels like someone rapped a piece of my soul.
I'm scarred of lonely my flesh feels cold
no overnight stays texting full days.
Sunny rays on his face or dick occupying my space..
his number one on myspace just got erased and now I'm thinking back
to all the things we did. Life passing by me wanting to live,
but instead I remain silent in the death that he give.

Seems like those I so easlily held onto have moved right threw,
the chokehold I held denied you the right to breathe you wanted to leave
but tighter I grabbed, yoked up your sleeve.
Ready to deplete dreams for being fast
I wonder just how long a pop could last?
that chick with the big ass, she makes her own cash all she wanted
was a relationship that could last.
Push them away attract a hardship,
whats to show? broken heart and fat lip... complete the days of distraughtness.
life passing by me wanting to live,
but instead I remain silent in the death that he give.

I could choose to speak closed mouth so weak
everything but the girl that he seeked.
Tears and bruises under the sheets
life passing by me wanting to live,
but instead I remain silent in the death that he give.
And I birth him life.