Ive died a thousand times in one night
shed a million tears with no light
not a glimmer from a lamp or a flicker from candle
has helped this distressed damsel
nor a word of encouragement
a promise of revenge
has belittled the promiscuous memories I cringe
For my life has ended the day before yesterday
For my mother's life I have chosen to stay
A ghostly spirit caught between two worlds...
Living hell while present on earth
My mind has rewinded to emasculate my birth
because last night I lied a lonely lay
I prayed that the center of my life would stay
I crumbled at the defeat of play
my life story shoved in my face
whispers of I love yous
kisses with promises
pillow talk of having kids
biceps that held me tightly
that night I died, he watched me pail so whitely
impale my heart
preserved my lungs
my ancestry soul on maple tree hung
Pain replaced blood through my veins
Embalmer fluid inside me he came
Yet whats not alive cannot give birth
and that part lonelies me the most
Stripped me from my smile
Raped me of my joy
Beat the love out of me
Robbed me of my boy
and while I've fallen on only a hundred knives
I've almost became only a hundred wives
I've dwelled in an infinite amount of cries
and spoon feed just about a trillion lies
saw my life flash about only twice
I've already died a thousand times in one night
