Its like you never knew me

AND Today of all days when Jesus gave us a miracle,
saved me from myself-- you decide to sacrifice yourself
to hide from the pain of shed tears.
As if I'm the type of woman that would take pride in seeing you suffer
Must of had me confused with another but, it's like you never knew me

Or heard my stories of abandonment and abuse when life took its coldest days
upon my forehead.. left for dead, families estranged when the only common
denominator was the blood and dna in our veins, but you thought you were funny
telling me to never call you back again. How could you dead me when,
you were suppose to know me better?

AND Today of all days when I wanted you closest,
to comfort my concerns and troubled voices screaming across my eyelids
of you with her and her and you and someone else too that had nothing to
do with me... Consistently, I've loved you abundantly-- I couldn't give you all of me
But its like you never knew me.

Cuz if you did you would have knew better than
to say the things that he said before you
and refrain from complementing me when someone else is trying to do it for you
and not played with my feelings knowing they were scarce to begin with
and NEVER talked to her, since you was on to your NEXT bitch
and would have kissed me just a little bit longer....

Cuz the Monarch butterfly that I once was
retreated in her cocoon of fine silk after seeing a caterpillar smushed
I taped up pieces I found to love you
and danced in the rain when there were no more pieces left
I've already died my excruciating deaths, so no baby
that part is just left for me and the world to humanly coexist
because without it, I'm just a heartless vessel riding the world of its
pure ignorance
and hating babies from dope feen mothers despite their innocents...
but then again, its not like you ever really knew me.