Summer showers

I'm not heart broken
Love was a road we straddled
And deserted
Like passing summer showers
Pointless ...
But if I'm too believe there's a reason for everything then my season must be coming soon
You mirrored the sights I wish unseen

And I ate each one alone without help
But I'm not heart broken
My pride wounded
Ego sour
Teeth sucked
Eyes rolled
If again ....

The after hurt more in the beginning
Theres open scabs on a wound
I've gained too many times
Someone did the favor
Of breaking my heart already
Tore it apart....
And I'm left with shattered peices
That can't be fixed
To attempt to love again ...
But I'm not heart broken
Love was a road we strattled and deserted
Both feet firmly to the ground

Breathe with me

The gentle breeze kisses me
Sweetly like the squeeze on my knee
When I've relinquished control
Gentle is the kiss on my forehead
That sends a quiver to my spine
And every vertebra from behind
Loving is the sunshine
That dances into sunset
And under moonlight Id stand by you

Holding no regrets
My beauty is reflected
In your eyes I'm trapped paralized
Without a means to escape
I fall pray to hide
Under your arms
Your heartbeat sings to my soul
Breathing deeply into my river
I left a drink just for you

teaspoon neurotic

I'm frightened by the shadows
and hurt by their whispers
somebody once said
the truth hurts
and I've stumbled in the alleys
found my way out of stairwells
Came up from an eternity of drowned tears
But I'm frightened by the shadows

Afraid the whispers I heard might actually be true
Facing myself was the biggest battle I ever won
Slashes to prove my battle wounds
I am capable of victory

but in the pit of me
bones of skeletons thrive through me freely
if no one else knew
I'm scared of lonely and petrified of heartbreak
that love may be true love
completed by self sacrifice and escape
that I may fall prisoner again
steel bars confine
my mind
of painful memories
both past and present
ugly and beautiful
I could only have a slice of my soul left
to share with you

I'm an endangered species that hides out
of the light
away from the sun
and avoids windows and mirrors at all cost
But the warmth of human affection
eradicates my obsession
in dwindling away all that was won
I cant expect you to rescue me
while I rescue me from myself

I sit at my alter with bible and sunflower and chamomile tea to sip silently
with a teaspoon of neurotic and splenda for sweetness to taste

To you, for me

I had a moment in the inbetween
I fantisized a lullaby of strung
Hopes and dreams
Reflected in your eyes
Was everything I ever knew I deserved
And nothing I knew I needed
But I hesitated
Swift steps are sure to prove heartbreaks
Insecurity and faith often leap together
And I am no different
Persistence
That overwhelms my heart and mind
Like a dagger under my fingertips
Ive reached out and let my hand go
With nothing but a cool breeze
Left to echo my assumptions
If you must win....
The hands of time may rewind to intact that which was once broken
If I let hope in
Ive double stiched reason into broken seams
Where your withdrawal has hurt me deeply
And I would be your refuge from all storm
It would be easier to never feel
When im never sure how much you feel is real...

Eternal dance

We danced on cobble stone streets
In the month of june
May whispers on my shoulder
In the streets of Morocco
But merengue blazed
On the street corner
Pouring the sounds of salsa
From dim lit windows
Laughter carried
In a language native not mine

And my hips moved festively
Quick! Quick! Turn! Dip!
Tilted my head curls praying backwards
In your arms I belong
Body close but your presence
Invading me slowly

And you step quickly
But whisper slow
We spun into infinity
A sweet night in Morocco

Before the calm

You seem like heaven
And I'm afraid to die today
Who says heaven doesn't have
A storm or two before the calm
Where pink clouds should last

Who said
I should fall from shakey ledges
And spread my arms peacefully
Because the sound of your voice
Sings to my soul so consistently

With deep eyes
Freed lies and wonders of our yesterday
I would send you light-years into our destined future
Finger tips dancing on my spine under your green moons

The break of daylight
The sun would shy away always
Jealous of our morning  song
And goodnight goodbyes

That he may provide eternal shelter
That I wont put my trust in you
He baptized me by the nile river in the morning
As soon as the sun cried for spring may bloom

You seem like heaven
I shouldn't be ready to die so soon

Fellows my generations

I feel like I can't breathe
Your hands tiny reaching out to me
Destined to believe
That you can be
The sand beneath my feet
Im at the soul of a younger generation
bleeding love, their desperate for dedication
A population that wont turn their back
On my high need children

Broken homes
We cracked threw stones
I can see my baby girl holding on
And im reaching out to you
Tell me all that I can do?
To enable your wings when your ready to fly

Your little tiny hands begging for more
Eyes hungry
Fist deprived
Im thirsty to feed my knowledge to your eyes
It only takes one vote
To save a man's life
from prison
I've unshackled your wrist
Poured in you educational freedom