Enough Christian

Its those souls that are lost
That Jesus finds first
Those that never knew him
And are feeling it the worst
No God, I'm not cracked out
Just tryna find my way
I'd like to pay my dues
And find a place to stay
I'm not lazy I'd love to work
And maybe be repaid
For the money
and kindness I've spent
Dissapointed in karma dismayed
On those who've said they loved me

But when doors are closing
And you said they would open
And I'm getting dial tones
And middle fingers
Instead of the kindness I showed them
I don't remember to turn my other cheek
And I'm not worried about the sake of my soul next week
Tomorrow isn't promised
But tonight isn't either
I've been shyted on chopped up meat cleaver
I've been lied to betrayed and left stranded
I've been falsely accused and uncomfortably repremanded

My cup been runnenth
And goodness and mercy was suppose to follow me all the days of my life
But I was punched in the face when I was suppose to be his wife
And hurt and dismayed I'm tired of the strays
Not sleeping with fleas but I see the bug bites by the day
I'm hurt
Not revengeful at the least
I'm just tired of being cold sleeping in my car on the streets
So no, don't ask me to donate or volunteer
The world can kiss my ass when the world has ignored my tears

And its coldest cuz its the ones that are suppose to love you most
And its coldest
Cuz its the ones
That are suppose
To love you
Most

the suicidal voices they provoke
The fucks it in my systems
And liquors in my cup
The ones who wish you well
Well I wish they shut the fuck up
I'm not Christian enough
To retape the broken pieces
I'm not strong enough
To relinquish in prose or reasons
To wait on God
When honestly
I'm just waiting to see him
So maybe if I take the leap
Ill find my way to freedom
To find that white light
He'll catch me tonight
If I can just be Christian enough
To sneak my way inside

Cuz tomorrow isn't promised
But neither is tonight.
Christian enough to follow blindly
Ill be Christian enough
With Jesus beside me.